The long awaited day =) Celebrations in VJ in the morning. Memories of cedar started flooding back as watched the videos.. thought of Mrs Ng too. Its been one year since she left, many things have happened. Wonder how her son and family are doing....At that moment, I just felt like crying. Had the sudden urge to find Mrs Woo...
Went back to coral after that with Audrey and Joel (quite touched that joel would go back with us rather than to folow his friends out ^^) Though in the end, only Wisely, Nicholas, dick and Zul went back with the 3 of us, I was still happy. Lao shi became younger! Livelier! =D Maybe cos she dyed her hair. xD And we got a shock when we saw nicholas and dick. They changed so much! It took Audrey 1 hour to recover from the shock. xD Was kinda sian that we got chased outta school at around 1400. So, we took a long stroll through the park to E-hub. There, we met Amanda for a short while.
Then, we rushed for a 1515 movie - 4bia!! Should have taken photo of all their reactions. Joel was sinking into his seat, wisely actually put on his headphone and blasted music through it, nicholas was throwing out swear words, dick was covering his eyes and ears (like me ^^) and audrey was laughing like crazy. One word to describe the post-movie feeling.... SHUANG! lolz. Scary but shiok. After that, all our legs were soft like jelly.
let your heart out.
Monday, August 25, 2008Y
Tired, sian....
In school now. Doing pw with sashimi, queen and boon. So sian..... Feel like sleeping.
Looking at my p5 class foto. xD =) =D ^_^ Looking forward to friday! Its been such a long time since we all met. Furthermore, ah yi mabel would be performing for the teacher's day concert. haha. I'll go down to support her.
Here's a list of who'll be going. If any of u feel like joining us just come along ya... There'll be lessons in the morning and the celebrations would start at 12 and end around 1. But pls come down before 1, cos Mrs tan bian will have to go aft that.
Audrey Amanda Inn may me! pu en (on waiting list) charlton wisely chun kang dick nicholas joel [and counting on....]
let your heart out.
Y
nice day
Life is still better with drama serials. xD was watching 命中注定我爱你 this morning. Wanted to go to the airport earlier to study with xiao chun today de. In the end, still went there quite late cos of it. The show's just too nice. =)
In the end, reached dere ard 3.30pm. But was quite glad tad im more efficient today! Woots! Though my pace is still abit slow, but im improving! =D Was mugging halfway when Jonathan appeared! So he joined us. Luckily he did, if not xiao chun and i would have just talked all the way. xD
Can't wait for friday! Hopefully those who said they'll come would come. And those that said they would try their best would be able to make it too! I wish I wish I wish..... (sincerely) =)
let your heart out.
Friday, August 22, 2008Y
冲动
很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松
忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切我想要比谁都懂
我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我 你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落
let your heart out.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008Y
Inefficiency
This is demoralising. Chem tutorial was easy, but why wasn't I able to answer a simple question that ms wong posted to me? I was purely "wasting everyone's time"... Econs essay test wasn't tough either. But why couldn't I complete it on time? It wasn't even 50% up to standard. Only 3 weeks left to promos. Yet my efficiency curve has to reach its peak now! And it is decreasing rapidly. Just not in the mood to study this few days.
Been thinking too much. Just too much. Why can't I control myself? Exhausted. I should take a break and rest early tonight.
let your heart out.
Monday, August 18, 2008Y
Yet another day....
Today's like any other day. Plus point of the day? Its monday =) Monday's lecture day, except for 1 math tutorial, and its the shortest day (lessons end at 1355). After the last lecture today, 35 took 2 class photos. Though they were all kinda blur, it was still nice (cos its 35!! woots!). We went back to the very same spot that we took our first class photo. Memories of PAE started flooding back...miss those who have left us.
Reli sorry that I lost boon's book. Luckily, I managed to find it in kino. Apparently, cos pf tmr's lecture test, not many could go with me to get the book, so went with CC in the end. There, we found these 2 strange books. Difference between both : they had different titles - How to spot a virgin in the crowd and Everything men know about women. Similarity: Both were 100% content-less i.e. the pages were all blank. -.- And to think both cost about 10 bucks each. I wonder who in the world would pay this amount for such a book ( that is of course, if they're buying the brand, cos both are apparently award-winning books).
Working hard is much more important than plain wishing. NIL SINE LABORE
let your heart out.
Saturday, August 16, 2008Y
千年恋歌
마른 풀꽃처럼 야윈 슬픔이 像枯萎的花一样瘦的悲伤
엉킨 세월에 잠 못 들때 在成熟的岁月中无法入睡
가슴속을 깊이 파고드는 深深地找寻胸中
거친 한숨에 매달리네 带着粗重的喘息
천년의 눈물을 모으면 如果聚集一千年的眼泪
*이 맘 다 대신할까 此时全都被取而代之
노을이 떠난 저 하늘 끝엔 晚霞最终会消失在天空的尽头
오늘도 서성거리네 今天也是动荡不定的
이른 새벽 아침 여린 햇살이 早晨的拂晓是脆弱的阳光
지난 밤 꿈에 깨어날 때 离开的夜晚是梦醒时分
막막했던 어제 그 꿈들이 昨天的那个梦
전설 속으로 사라지네 在传说中消失
천년의 소원을 모으면 如果聚起一千年的愿望
*이 맘 다 대신할까 此时全都被取而代之
햇살이 떠난 저 들판 끝엔 阳光最终会离开了这片田野
오늘도 서성거리네 今天也是动荡不定的
저 혼자 떠놀던 낮은 바람이 这独自轻轻离开的风
지친 숨결로 헤매일때 至亲挣扎地在呼吸
한나절에 내린 이 빗물로 下了半天的雨
세상의 설움 달래보네 这雨水试着安慰世间的悲伤
천년의 사랑을 모으면 如果聚起一千年的爱
*이 맘 다 대신할까 此时全都被取而代之
달빛이 잠든 저 하늘 끝엔 月光像在天空中熟睡一样
오늘도 서성거리네 今天也是动荡不定的
천년의 그리움 모으면 如果聚起一千年的眷恋
이 맘 다 대신할까 此时全都被取而代之
해오름 비친 저 들판 끝엔 阳光最终会离开了这片田野
오늘도 서성거리네 今天也是动荡不定的
let your heart out.
Monday, August 11, 2008Y
Down memory lane
This is what I usually do when I'm stressed up or upset or bored or simply when I miss my primary school friends....
My mom keeps a ring file for each of us. In it she'll put each of our personal objects, like birth cert, certificates, photos, and for mine, cards that my friends wrote to me. Was reading the birthday cards that my primaary school friends wrote, and i couldn't control laughing. Now to think of it, our english was really bad then. Here's one example. Joel wrote "I hope you have the most birthday in school". And another wrote " Happy birthday zoe. I like to eat you cake. I (heart shape) to eat.". We didn't know the proper usage of to and from too. Though there are still many cards with content i do not understand, these cards are certainly the best that I've received in my life.
Other than that, there were pics and.... my umbilical cord and ultrasonic scan. The cord was in a red packet though, and I din dare to open it up to see. >_<
let your heart out.
Saturday, August 09, 2008Y
Emotional.
This couple of days, things happened and i've been pondering over them (yet again).
For the whole of this week, I haven't touched a single notes nor done a single piece of work, mainly cos of Connect Singapore. Though it seemed kinda stupid to me, I don't know why I chose to continue helping out. Maybe its cos I didn't want to shirk my responsibility, or more directly, I wanted to challenge myself. Everything went quite well, preparations i mean, and as the DAY drew closer, I got more and more enthusiastic and optimistic bout it.
Then thurs came and I did according to plan. Until, the time when we started forming the chain. Some of the people from our team were just not into the thing and can't be bothered. Can't blame them, cos even till then, I was still somewhat unconvinced by the project. But what was most disappointing and at the same time touching was the reality. Here was what i experienced that day... From some "well-known" school... teacher : I dun know who came up wif this stupid project to make our girls suffer under the sun like tad Student: Forget it! I'm not gonna move anymore. This thing is idiotic! and after the event which underwent some major hitches, another teacher from that school came into our holding room and the first thing said was ' can u tell me what exactly happened just now?'
From evergreen sec... student: Its so hot. I want to go back home. teacher: Don't always think of working in your own comfort zone and do only things that u like. You'll never learn if u don't challenge yourself and step out of your comfort zone. Do u understand? And after the event, I apologized to the teacher-in-charge. And he replied: Its alright, no one's to blame for this. Really (Smiles). Student: Thank you for everything today. Ypu have done a great job!
See the diff?
Its been such a long time. Everytime I thought I found someone better and have given up on u, I'll just get triggered again. Is there really no one better den u? Or isit just my obstinance?
let your heart out.
Monday, August 04, 2008Y
Drowning...
This is just too much for me to handle. On the verge of breaking down.... I feel as if I'm a taut string that's gonna snap with another strum....
"What do I want?" It's what I've been using my brain to ponder on for the past week. Maybe it would be much better to use my heart to answer that question.
let your heart out.
Sunday, August 03, 2008Y
Pressure + happy
6 more weeks to promos. burden.. BURDEN. BURDEN!!!! Haiz. So much to do and so little time to accomplish them. I guess at times like this, we have to give up something to concentrate on another. Cos if we don't, we'll get no where and be stuck where we are forever. Read boon's blog.. Indeed, wad he said was true. CO, connect Singapore, remedials, pw, lighthink... they are all weighing me down. In wad position am I to complain about all these when there are so many more ppl out there who are much busier than I am. All I can do is to blame my intelligence? I feel like I'm drowning, but i think the shamefulness of complaining would be much more unbearable. How can I give up so easily, when others around me are sacrificing their time and energy to push me on, to empsthise with me... I'll cling on... I will PERSEVERE!!
On a happier tone... things are getting less complicated. Maybe, with less people involved and more understanding, its really better...for things like tad. After all that we've gone through, after all the despair and stress, I've realised that what matters most is how I truly feel. Cliche as it may sound 顺其自然吧。有时候逆着水行舟; 逆着风跑步真的很疲惫。跟着自己最真实的感觉始终是最轻松最好的。